I’m reading a book called Atomic Habits by James clear. It’s about making small changes over time, persistently and by using specifics instead of vague wording. There’s a lot more to the book than just this of course and I highly recommend it.
Anyway for example instead of having a goal stating “I want to lose weight” a much more refined specific version would be something like “I will work out for 30 minutes after my morning cup of coffee” I find this stuff interesting because I’ve been trying to implement good habits into my life and get rid of bad ones.
So here are some habits I’m trying to add into my life.
.Draw more – I will draw/or at least begin a drawing every morning while I have my morning cup of coffee for at least 25 minutes.
Exercise – I will take a walk in the mornings after breakfast and in the afternoon after lunch.
Food – I will sit at my kitchen table when I eat instead of eating mindlessly standing up or in my room. I will not have more than 2 caffeinated cups of coffee a day (it causes anxiety and insomnia for me) I will eat some sort of vegetables at least once a day.
Cleaning: I will sweep the floor every evening after dinner. I will mop/vacuum the floors on Saturdays.
I finally got some sleep. I think it’s possible that not eating enough was contributing to it as well as all the other stuff. I barely ate anything for a couple weeks and was weighing myself 5 or more times a day. I feel SO much better since eating. I can’t do that anymore, it’s ridiculous. 6 years of bulimia, it’s been like 3 months without purging but I’ve been trying to hold onto restricting, I have to let it go completely. I forced myself to stay in bed last night even though I wanted to get up and pace around like I normally do because I had a lot of thoughts going through my mind and it was getting me really energized. So it was a long night of tossing and turning but I eventually fell asleep.
I’m really trying to make changes in my life. I did stress relief yoga last night and it felt really good. Went grocery shopping today so I finally have actual legitimate food in my apartment other than crackers. Working on dealing with my anxiety rather than letting it run rampant like it’s been the past few months.
I’m using my wax melter I recently bought, there are so many great scents available. Drawing, coloring, journaling. Just basically doing everything I can to manage stress.
Found out I qualify for the Dean’s list at my college. My GPA would technically be higher than that but I had that one semester where I stopped showing up a couple years ago because of ending up in the hospital, so since I didn’t withdraw from those classes in time my GPA went way down. It’s going back up though! After next semester I’ll be halfway done with my associates of science in human services. It’s taken me awhile since I’ve had to do it part time and take time off but I’m getting there. 🙂
Here’s a picture of my church from midnight mass on Christmas Eve