Changes

I haven’t been posting mainly because I’ve been going through some big medication changes the past couple weeks, it’s certainly been a heck of an adventure.  I’m happy to say though that I’m starting to do much better, things have been improving a lot.

Autumn is on it’s way!  I’m so ready for it  😀 Autumn and Winter are my favorite seasons.  I’m really looking forward to the holidays as well.  I know they’re still a ways off but I’m excited because I get to actually enjoy them this year.  I really don’t know what happened last year but I felt down and apathetic about everything, which is unusual for me especially during the holiday season.  So I plan on going all out this year with decorating and having fun.

My concentration has improved so I’ve been able to read much more. Right now I’m re-reading a book called “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F**ck” by Mark Manson.  It’s a great book that I highly recommend.  I think this may be the third time I’ve read it over the past several years.  Has a lot of good advice and insight about having important values and not forcing yourself to be superficially happy 24/7 pushing problems aside until they build up and are too much to handle.

Hope everyone is doing well 🙂  I’ll be posting some stuff related to videogames and art soon, see you then!

 

Favorite Mental Health Related Books

I’m not great at reviewing books but I thought I’d at least but together a list of books that I’ve enjoyed and have helped me in with dealing with my mental illness.

These are non fiction, with the exception of one

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Here are some of my favorite mental health related books

Hearing Voices, Living Fully by Claire Bien 

Haldol and Hyacinths: A Bipolar Life by Melody Moezzi 

Bulimia a Guide to Recovery by Lindsey Hall

The Eating Disorder Sourcebook by Carolyn Costin 

What a Life Can Be: One Therapist’s Take on Schizoaffective Disorder by Carolyn Dobbins, Ph. D

The Collected Schizophrenias: Essays by Esmé Weijun Wang

Surviving Schizophrenia by E. Fuller Torrey 

Maintaining Recovery from Eating Disorders by Naomi Feigenbaum

Coping Skills: Tools and Techniques for Every Stressful Situation by Faith G. Harper 

The Soloist by Steve Lopez

Marbles: Mania, Depression, Michaelangelo and Me by Ellen Forney (graphic novel)

The Buddha and the Borderline by Kiera Van Gelder 

also, anything by Geneen Roth relating to eating disorders is good 

 

Here are some workbooks that are very helpful:

The Dialectical Behavior Skills Workbook for Bulimia by Ellen Astrachan-Fletcher and Michael Maslar

The Bipolar Survival Guide by David J. Miklowitz

The Binge Eating and Compulsive Overeating Workbook by Carolyn Coker Ross

Thoughts and Feelings, Fourth Edition: Taking Control of Your Mood and Your Life by Matthew McKay Ph. D, Martha Davis Ph. D and Patrick Fanning 

 

Fiction Mental Health Books:

The Silver Linings Playbook by Matthew Quick 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Moving, Books, and Better Motivation

I might be moving this summer into a new apartment.  Have an interview and building tour this Friday at the place I applied to.  I’m very excited.  The thought of moving is stressful but it will be a nice fresh start.   It would be much better for me financially.  My only concern is getting the cats there, they allow cats but physically getting them there is the problem.  They won’t get in their crates,  and I honestly don’t blame them.  It was a total nightmare trying to move them across like 4 states several years ago in a car. I’m going to try and get them one of those nice travel things.  The good thing is the new place would only be like a 5 minute drive from where I currently live, so worst case scenario I would just have to put them on my lap in the car on the way there 2 trips at a time.

I’m a month into my eating disorder recovery, really proud of myself.  Never thought I’d make it this far after so many years of struggling.  My mood has been great, and I’ve been doing things I enjoy.  Reading a lot, drawing/coloring, playing games, learning Italian.  I’m wanting to cut back on caffeine, I had like 6 or 7 cups yesterday….I’m trying to cut back a little at a time.  Bought a Yoga/Pilates book and am definitely excited about trying out that.

Right now I’m reading a book by Debbie Macomber (one of her Christmas stories)  I always like reading holiday stories in the summer because I can’t stand the heat so I pretend it’s winter/Christmastime 🙂 The next book I plan on reading is Mother Teresa; A Complete Authorized Biography by Kathryn Spink.  🙂

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The above picture was taken by me in Savannah Georgia while on a trip visiting Columbus, GA.  It’s so beautiful there!

Update

I’m not exactly sure how this happened but I ended up sleeping all of last night plus half of the day.  Couldn’t seem to get out of bed.

In general though things have been going well.  I feel motivated and am enjoying my classes.  I’ve been facing my anxiety more. I finally renewed my gym membership and started working out again.  It feels so good, I don’t understand why I didn’t go for the past 6 months.  I wanted to, but I had anxiety about it for some reason even though I used to go all the time, something about going started making me feel anxious.  I guess I go through phases where I don’t like leaving the house.  It’s been better though.  I’m getting out of the house almost every day of the week now.

Watched the movie Deadpool last night for the first time.  OMG.  It was amazing, why has it taken me this long to see it!? So damn funny. I’ll probably be watching Deadpool 2 during the week.

Still reading The Chronicles of Narnia.  It’s taking me much longer than books normally take me because I’ve been having trouble concentrating, it’s great though.  Also reading The Conundrum by David Owen for my Environmental Science class.  It’s basically about how improved efficiency and technological advances that may be intended to help us lessen our effects on the environment can sometimes backfire and cause additional environmental problems.  It’s very interesting.

I’ll likely be up all night and during the day tomorrow.  I don’t see myself sleeping after all the sleep I just got and because I’ve got plans to hang out with a friend tomorrow.

Will be watching a horror movie later,  The Nun.  I’m going to start working on drawing some manga style art using a tutorial book on it I got from the library.

Thanks for reading!  What’s everyone else watching, reading, or playing?

 

 

Great Used Bookstore Finds: Eating Disorder Recovery

I got this book the other day at a local used bookstore I go to often. I have read it before but it was a long time ago so I’m going through it again. I was happy and surprised to find it there because it was actually on my list for mental health related books I wanted to buy. I’ve had very good luck finding good eating disorder recovery related books there in their psychology section. Another one I found and bought recently was “Women Food and God” by Geneen Roth. And awhile back I purchased “The Eating Disorder Sourcebook” by Carolyn Costin (Third Edition). They have amazing prices too, all of these books were just $2 each and in great condition. I love that place!

I’ve been struggling with recovery lately and I’m hoping to get inspired and start making more progress. It’s hard, much harder than I ever imagined. It’s more than stopping the behaviors, which of course is difficult in itself, the thoughts are hard to fight and they’re constantly there.

Doing Wonderful!

Things have been going very well lately. 🙂  It’s the second week of the spring semester and I already have tons of assignments, readings, quizzes and other stuff coming from every which way!  I’m actually enjoying it though.  I love learning and it helps keep me busy.

My anxiety level has improved a lot.  I was able to face something earlier this week that was giving me anxiety for months.  Something ridiculous honestly but it’s an accomplishment for me.  Haven’t been having panic attacks, finally!

Started drawing more often and journaling.  I seem to be able to do more lately.  I was a little depressed for awhile and kind of paralyzed by anxiety so I wasn’t doing things I needed to do or even things I enjoy.  I’m motivated and happy now.

Have been eating healthier.  Much less sugar/junk food and more fruit and vegetables.  I swear I was going through sugar withdrawals for a couple days, I had such a horrible headache that would not go away and felt like crap.  My body was probably shocked by the healthy food, like what the hell is this stuff?!? lol

Bought a set of 300 anatomy study cards.  No, I am not taking an anatomy class right now…   It was partially an impulse buy and partially due to the fact that I want to learn more about the human body out of general interest and for reference when drawing.  They’re really cool!

Still reading The Chronicles of Narnia, haven’t had as much time since classes started up again but wow, it’s amazing

 

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Update: Books, Games, and College

Things have been going well lately.! I’ve been getting good sleep and haven’t been having panic attacks.  I’ve only heard voices  two times in the past week and both times I was able to pull myself back into reality and disengage from them.  I’m so happy about that, I feel like I’m getting a break for once.

I’ve been dealing with my anxiety pretty well.  I have tons of ways to distract myself.  Lately it’s been reading and videogames.  I’m reading The Chronicles of Narnia right now.  I can’t believe I never began reading it until now, it’s been on my “to read” list forever.  I’m really enjoying it, the imagery from the story is amazing.  It’s been a long time since I’ve gotten into any good fantasy novels.  I love them but have been reading more non-fiction lately.

These are the games I’ve been playing (all on my Nintendo 3DS)

  • The Lord of The Rings (LEGO)
  • Animal Crossing: New Leaf
  • Pokemon Alpha Sapphire

I know there’s a new Animal Crossing game coming out this year and I can’t wait!  I don’t have a Nintendo Switch yet but will be getting one soon.  I still have so many games I own that I haven’t played yet or much of with both my 3DS and Xbox 360.

The new semester begins tomorrow.  I’m extremely anxious, but in a good way.  I’m so excited that I probably won’t be able to sleep tonight, I never am the night before something I’m really looking forward to happens.

Oh yeah, we got over a foot of snow, 15 inches to be exact.  I love it!  It’s super cold outside. 😀

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