Happy

Things have been going very well in my world.  My meds were tweaked just a bit more and it’s the perfect balance where I have full stability but also have the energy and motivation I need, and am not completely sedated out of my mind like I was for awhile.

I’m drawing much more frequently.  I’m able to focus, I’ve read a few books already this month.  So all in all I’m happy.  My case manager is signing me up with a vocational rehab program so I can get a part time job, I feel ready for that.  I’m keeping on top of checking for when the apartment I applied to get into is having an opening.  It’s looking like it won’t be till after the 2019 holidays because I don’t think anybody’s gonna be moving during them, which is okay.  It will be a fresh start whenever it does happen.

I’m proud to say that October will mark 6 months of eating disorder recovery.  It’s been a long rocky road but it’s getting much easier over time!

 

Thanks for reading! 🙂

Feeling Great!

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Well, it’s finally cooling off!  Love this time of year

I’m very stable mentally, more than I’ve been in over a year and am going to start looking into part time work soon 🙂

I feel excited about life and my future!  I’m hoping to be able to start classes again and finish up my degree, it won’t be until the spring semester because I’m focusing on getting a job right now and moving hopefully within the next 4 or 5 months to a better apartment.

Just wanted to check in, hope everyone is well 🙂

What I’ve Been Playing – September 2019

Right now I’m replaying Pokemon Y, this time with EXP Share turned off to make it more of a challenge.  I completely forgot how awesome the X/Y games were!  It makes me excited to have seen the in depth footage from the Nintendo Direct about Pokemon Sword/Shield.  The new game looks amazing and like a lot of work was put into it.  The character customization options looks great too. I really wasn’t a fan of Sun/Moon so I’m ready for a new adventure!

I’m continuing to play Yonder: The Cloud Catcher Chronicles, 57% completion as of now.  I took some time off from playing games when I wasn’t doing well so I’m not as far as I probably would have been by now.  Still love it and am amazed with all the different areas and crafting abilities.  It’s really an underrated game.

 

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The 3rd game I’m playing is Assassins Creed III.  I had never played any of the Assassins Creed games before and got a couple from my brother in-law when he gave me his old Xbox 360 so I thought I’d give them a try.  I’m really enjoying it so far, it seems like it will be a lot of fun.  The only thing I don’t like is that it takes awhile before you’re able to free roam and explore but other than that I like it very much.

 

Changes

I haven’t been posting mainly because I’ve been going through some big medication changes the past couple weeks, it’s certainly been a heck of an adventure.  I’m happy to say though that I’m starting to do much better, things have been improving a lot.

Autumn is on it’s way!  I’m so ready for it  😀 Autumn and Winter are my favorite seasons.  I’m really looking forward to the holidays as well.  I know they’re still a ways off but I’m excited because I get to actually enjoy them this year.  I really don’t know what happened last year but I felt down and apathetic about everything, which is unusual for me especially during the holiday season.  So I plan on going all out this year with decorating and having fun.

My concentration has improved so I’ve been able to read much more. Right now I’m re-reading a book called “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F**ck” by Mark Manson.  It’s a great book that I highly recommend.  I think this may be the third time I’ve read it over the past several years.  Has a lot of good advice and insight about having important values and not forcing yourself to be superficially happy 24/7 pushing problems aside until they build up and are too much to handle.

Hope everyone is doing well 🙂  I’ll be posting some stuff related to videogames and art soon, see you then!

 

Update

Just wanted to post a quick update, I’ve been off here for awhile because of some mental health problems but things should start getting better soon since it’s all getting sorted out.  I hope everyone is doing well and I plan to start writing in here again and drawing as well, thanks for sticking around 🙂

Favorite Mental Health Related Books

I’m not great at reviewing books but I thought I’d at least but together a list of books that I’ve enjoyed and have helped me in with dealing with my mental illness.

These are non fiction, with the exception of one

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Here are some of my favorite mental health related books

Hearing Voices, Living Fully by Claire Bien 

Haldol and Hyacinths: A Bipolar Life by Melody Moezzi 

Bulimia a Guide to Recovery by Lindsey Hall

The Eating Disorder Sourcebook by Carolyn Costin 

What a Life Can Be: One Therapist’s Take on Schizoaffective Disorder by Carolyn Dobbins, Ph. D

The Collected Schizophrenias: Essays by Esmé Weijun Wang

Surviving Schizophrenia by E. Fuller Torrey 

Maintaining Recovery from Eating Disorders by Naomi Feigenbaum

Coping Skills: Tools and Techniques for Every Stressful Situation by Faith G. Harper 

The Soloist by Steve Lopez

Marbles: Mania, Depression, Michaelangelo and Me by Ellen Forney (graphic novel)

The Buddha and the Borderline by Kiera Van Gelder 

also, anything by Geneen Roth relating to eating disorders is good 

 

Here are some workbooks that are very helpful:

The Dialectical Behavior Skills Workbook for Bulimia by Ellen Astrachan-Fletcher and Michael Maslar

The Bipolar Survival Guide by David J. Miklowitz

The Binge Eating and Compulsive Overeating Workbook by Carolyn Coker Ross

Thoughts and Feelings, Fourth Edition: Taking Control of Your Mood and Your Life by Matthew McKay Ph. D, Martha Davis Ph. D and Patrick Fanning 

 

Fiction Mental Health Books:

The Silver Linings Playbook by Matthew Quick 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

20 by 30

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This is a list of 20 things I’d like to do/accomplish by 30 years old.  I was going to do 30 by 30 but couldn’t come up with that many ideas at the moment.  I turned 25 two months ago. So that gives me 5 years to try and do what’s on my list.  This was a lot of fun to make!

  1. Graduate with my associates degree (I’m about halfway done now)
  2. Be able to read Harry Potter series in Italian
  3. Learn how to solve a Rubiks Cube
  4. Have a part time job
  5. Read all of the books I own
  6. See Lindsey Stirling in concert
  7. Try bubble tea
  8. Begin studying Japanese
  9. Go to a zoo
  10. Improve my artwork
  11. Visit NYC
  12. Begin playing the violin again
  13. Go to Lake George
  14. See more baseball games
  15. Learn to use chopsticks
  16. Get a new tattoo
  17. Learn how to cook more
  18. Learn to play Arkham Horror and other board/card games
  19. Buy a PS4 and an Xbox One
  20. Get nose re-pierced

I understand much of this isn’t really significant or ambitious but they’re things that I really want to do, some are a challenge but realistic. 🙂