Schizoaffective Art

This is something I’ve been wanting to draw for awhile now.  It’s basically a representation of how schizoaffective disorder feels to me, specifically during and after psychosis.  Complete confusion and chaos, and afterwards it feels like my mind has been ravaged and even simple things are hard to understand.

 

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College

I have an appointment at my college next week to get things straightened out so I can take classes again in the Spring of 2020. I had to take 2 semesters off because of mental health problems  so I’m excited about going back! I really miss it. I’m about halfway done without my associates degree, and determined to finish it then move on to a bachelors.

Lots of good stuff ahead of me!

 

 

Happy

Things have been going very well in my world.  My meds were tweaked just a bit more and it’s the perfect balance where I have full stability but also have the energy and motivation I need, and am not completely sedated out of my mind like I was for awhile.

I’m drawing much more frequently.  I’m able to focus, I’ve read a few books already this month.  So all in all I’m happy.  My case manager is signing me up with a vocational rehab program so I can get a part time job, I feel ready for that.  I’m keeping on top of checking for when the apartment I applied to get into is having an opening.  It’s looking like it won’t be till after the 2019 holidays because I don’t think anybody’s gonna be moving during them, which is okay.  It will be a fresh start whenever it does happen.

I’m proud to say that October will mark 6 months of eating disorder recovery.  It’s been a long rocky road but it’s getting much easier over time!

 

Thanks for reading! 🙂

Feeling Great!

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Well, it’s finally cooling off!  Love this time of year

I’m very stable mentally, more than I’ve been in over a year and am going to start looking into part time work soon 🙂

I feel excited about life and my future!  I’m hoping to be able to start classes again and finish up my degree, it won’t be until the spring semester because I’m focusing on getting a job right now and moving hopefully within the next 4 or 5 months to a better apartment.

Just wanted to check in, hope everyone is well 🙂

What I’ve Been Playing – September 2019

Right now I’m replaying Pokemon Y, this time with EXP Share turned off to make it more of a challenge.  I completely forgot how awesome the X/Y games were!  It makes me excited to have seen the in depth footage from the Nintendo Direct about Pokemon Sword/Shield.  The new game looks amazing and like a lot of work was put into it.  The character customization options looks great too. I really wasn’t a fan of Sun/Moon so I’m ready for a new adventure!

I’m continuing to play Yonder: The Cloud Catcher Chronicles, 57% completion as of now.  I took some time off from playing games when I wasn’t doing well so I’m not as far as I probably would have been by now.  Still love it and am amazed with all the different areas and crafting abilities.  It’s really an underrated game.

 

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The 3rd game I’m playing is Assassins Creed III.  I had never played any of the Assassins Creed games before and got a couple from my brother in-law when he gave me his old Xbox 360 so I thought I’d give them a try.  I’m really enjoying it so far, it seems like it will be a lot of fun.  The only thing I don’t like is that it takes awhile before you’re able to free roam and explore but other than that I like it very much.

 

Changes

I haven’t been posting mainly because I’ve been going through some big medication changes the past couple weeks, it’s certainly been a heck of an adventure.  I’m happy to say though that I’m starting to do much better, things have been improving a lot.

Autumn is on it’s way!  I’m so ready for it  😀 Autumn and Winter are my favorite seasons.  I’m really looking forward to the holidays as well.  I know they’re still a ways off but I’m excited because I get to actually enjoy them this year.  I really don’t know what happened last year but I felt down and apathetic about everything, which is unusual for me especially during the holiday season.  So I plan on going all out this year with decorating and having fun.

My concentration has improved so I’ve been able to read much more. Right now I’m re-reading a book called “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F**ck” by Mark Manson.  It’s a great book that I highly recommend.  I think this may be the third time I’ve read it over the past several years.  Has a lot of good advice and insight about having important values and not forcing yourself to be superficially happy 24/7 pushing problems aside until they build up and are too much to handle.

Hope everyone is doing well 🙂  I’ll be posting some stuff related to videogames and art soon, see you then!

 

Update

Just wanted to post a quick update, I’ve been off here for awhile because of some mental health problems but things should start getting better soon since it’s all getting sorted out.  I hope everyone is doing well and I plan to start writing in here again and drawing as well, thanks for sticking around 🙂