Hello, it’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything. My birthday was on the 4th, I turned 27. My sister bought me chicken parmesan and cannolis from a good Italian bakery and got me curtains for all the windows in my apartment.

I’m doing well on my meds, finally stable.

Today was a good day, my sister randomly dropped off some mini cannolis for me. Love them. That was really nice of her. I watched the movie Elf, hadn’t seen it in a long time. Makes me wish it was Christmas time 🙂

My apartment complex is having a series of adult nutrition/cooking classes starting next week. Definitely gonna go!

I have an apartment inspection Monday. Hate those, they always make me so nervous. But hopefully it goes well as usual.

I’m reading a few different books right now, including re-reading the Harry Potter series. The other books I’m reading are:

Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me by Anna Mehler Paperny

Sophie’s World: A Novel About the History of Philosophy by Jostein Gaarder

I’m trying to exercise and eat healthier. It’s going alright, I mean, I’m still struggling to get myself to go take walks, it’s a motivation and laziness issue not a physical issue. I was using the treadmills in the apartment complex but last time I tried to the one on my floor wasn’t working so I decided to start taking walks outside until it’s fixed. I haven’t checked to see if it’s fixed yet, maybe I’ll check tomorrow. Anyway, I got new shoes and they’re really comfortable. And I’m struggling with cutting back on sugar. It’s so addictive and the cravings are so intense. It could partly be from my meds (antipsychotics) but I’m trying to push through it.

Below are some pictures of my curtains and my birthday treat food, thanks for reading!

Simple Lime Salsa Chicken Tacos (Crockpot)

Hello, I made a simple recipe today that my sister recommended to me;

You take about 1lb of skinless boneless chicken breasts, 1 jar of chunky salsa, and a few tsp or more of lime juice (I put more because I love lime)

Anyway, you put it all in the crockpot on high for 2 hours, then put the heat down to low for 3 hours, then shred the chicken and put on tortillas with whatever toppings you want 🙂

Peanut Butter Fudge

I made this no cook, easy peanut butter fudge today. I’ve made it before and it’s really good but I added a few additions today. I added 1/2 cup of chopped walnuts mixed in and sprinkled chocolate chips on top.

Basically you just need 2 sticks (1 Cup) of butter, 1 cup of peanut butter. Heat that together in a saucepan till it’s melted and mixed, then take pan off the heat, mix in 1 1/2 Tsp of vanilla extract and 2 1/2 Cups of confectioners sugar. Mix together and add anything you want in it like chopped walnuts or whatever else you may want, then pour in an 8×8 pan and put in fridge to cool.

30 Day Meditation Challenge – Day 4

I did a 20 minute guided mindfulness meditation today that was aimed toward depression today. It helped me feel a little better about myself. I was having a weird day, I slept until 3:30pm and didn’t really get anything done. It helped me to not hate myself so much for having this sort of day and to not judge myself so harshly. I was able to focus pretty well today.

Last night in addition to my other meditation I posted about, I also prayed the Rosary. And that’s kind of a meditative thing so that was helpful to calm me down and get me to sleep.

30 Day Meditation Challenge – Day 3

Today I did the same 20 minute mindfulness/positive affirmation meditation I did yesterday. It was harder to focus today, my mind kept wandering. I think that’s because I’m withdrawing from caffeine. I did take a nap today and I think meditating helped that, I was able to fall asleep extremely fast.

My mood is okay. I feel a little down/anxious today but it’s no big deal. I’m just frustrated with my lack of motivation.

Thanks for reading!

Cattails – Nintendo Switch Game

I just recently started playing a game called Cattails for Nintendo Switch. You’re character is a cat and all the other NPCs are cats. It’s kind of like a cat version of stardew valley. You can even build a relationship with another cat and have kittens that can help you along with your routine/tasks. It’s really cool and I just wanted to get it some attention. It’s on sale now for $1.99 on the eshop, a total steal. It’s such a cheap price for such a cool game. I highly recommend it especially if your a fan of cats. 😃

60 Day No Caffeine / No Candy Challenges

I’m doing a 60 day challenge where I don’t consume any caffeine or candy. It’s gonna be difficult. But I think my body needs a break from it all for awhile. Sooo, here we go! I’ll provide update posts every week where I break down the week and let you all know how it’s going, what difficulties I’m facing with the challenge, my experience etc. I start tomorrow. I’ll have to put reminders in my planner to make the posts every week.

Thanks for reading, and feel free to join the challenge if you want!

30 Day Meditation Challenge – Day 2

Today I did a 20 minute guided mindfulness meditation that also had some positive affirmations throughout. I did a lot better than yesterday. I was able to relax and clear my mind, focus on the moment. Maybe drinking some matcha helped my focus. I’m not sure, but it felt good.

30 Day Meditation Challenge – Day 1

So today was the first day of m 30 day meditation challenge. I did a 20 minute guided mindfulness meditation I found on Youtube and put in my wireless earbuds to listen with my eyes closed, laying down underneath my weighted blanket. I had a lot of difficulty this time, it was really hard to focus my mind on my breathing and let go of thoughts. I think it was because I spent a lot of time online today and it really fragments my attention span and makes it hard to let go of racing thoughts when I step back from it and try to quiet my mind. I know it gets easier with practice though because I used to meditate a lot.

Just a bunch of random thoughts

The nausea from starting Abilify Maintena and withdrawing from Thorazine went away finally. I need to go to the dentist so I’m gonna call tomorrow and try to get an appointment, I’m having some tooth pain 😦

My sister gave me a 12lb weighted blanket today, it’s awesome, so relaxing. I have a lot of cleaning I’ve got to get caught up on. I kind of let myself off the hook the past week while adjusting to med changes but now I really need to get back on track with it. I’m going to try setting a timer for like 10 minutes to clean just to get myself started. Usually motivation follows after that and I continue for a lot longer, it doesn’t come beforehand.

I’m failing at my no caffeine challenge. Actually, I’m failing at all 3 challenges I set for myself lol. So I need to work on that. I at least want to cut back and use it more strategically instead of drinking it so often.

There’s treadmills in each of the 3 laundry rooms here at my apartment complex so I’m going to see if someone can show me how to use it then I can use it on my own to walk. It’s nice getting outside too to walk but not for super long distances in the spring/summer because I get overheated easily in the sun on my meds.

My sister is coming over next weekend for coffee or tea. I’m getting some matcha powder so I’m hoping I can try making us iced matcha lattes. I also asked if we could go to the park area together this spring/summer. She said sure. It’s a nice area and has a duck pond, lots of trees. Just a nice place to get out in nature. Plus there’s a rose garden near there and when all the different roses are in bloom it’s gorgeous. I’ll have to take some pics.

I didn’t make that crockpot recipe yet, I just wasn’t feeling up to going grocery shopping for the rest of the stuff this weekend. I’ll go and make it sometime within the next week.

I’m trying to lose weight. I don’t even know what I weigh right now, last time I checked was a few months ago and I was 145lbs but I know I’ve gained since then. I have a bad junk food habit I’m trying to break. My goal weight is 125lbs. I’m wanting to eat healthier and get more physical activity.

I started meditating again. Find it really grounding and stress relieving. Maybe I’ll do a challenge where I meditate for 20-30 minutes a day for a 30 days. Yeah I think I’ll do that, I’ll start tonight.

Anyway, thanks for reading my long rambling post 🙂