Favorite Mental Health Related Books

I’m not great at reviewing books but I thought I’d at least but together a list of books that I’ve enjoyed and have helped me in with dealing with my mental illness.

These are non fiction, with the exception of one

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Here are some of my favorite mental health related books

Hearing Voices, Living Fully by Claire Bien 

Haldol and Hyacinths: A Bipolar Life by Melody Moezzi 

Bulimia a Guide to Recovery by Lindsey Hall

The Eating Disorder Sourcebook by Carolyn Costin 

What a Life Can Be: One Therapist’s Take on Schizoaffective Disorder by Carolyn Dobbins, Ph. D

The Collected Schizophrenias: Essays by Esmé Weijun Wang

Surviving Schizophrenia by E. Fuller Torrey 

Maintaining Recovery from Eating Disorders by Naomi Feigenbaum

Coping Skills: Tools and Techniques for Every Stressful Situation by Faith G. Harper 

The Soloist by Steve Lopez

Marbles: Mania, Depression, Michaelangelo and Me by Ellen Forney (graphic novel)

The Buddha and the Borderline by Kiera Van Gelder 

also, anything by Geneen Roth relating to eating disorders is good 

 

Here are some workbooks that are very helpful:

The Dialectical Behavior Skills Workbook for Bulimia by Ellen Astrachan-Fletcher and Michael Maslar

The Bipolar Survival Guide by David J. Miklowitz

The Binge Eating and Compulsive Overeating Workbook by Carolyn Coker Ross

Thoughts and Feelings, Fourth Edition: Taking Control of Your Mood and Your Life by Matthew McKay Ph. D, Martha Davis Ph. D and Patrick Fanning 

 

Fiction Mental Health Books:

The Silver Linings Playbook by Matthew Quick 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Cupcake Sketch

I love drawing desserts so I sketched another cupcake today, I like how it came out 🙂  Also, I did add a few more minor details after taking this picture, but this is essentially it so I didn’t take another one

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20 by 30

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This is a list of 20 things I’d like to do/accomplish by 30 years old.  I was going to do 30 by 30 but couldn’t come up with that many ideas at the moment.  I turned 25 two months ago. So that gives me 5 years to try and do what’s on my list.  This was a lot of fun to make!

  1. Graduate with my associates degree (I’m about halfway done now)
  2. Be able to read Harry Potter series in Italian
  3. Learn how to solve a Rubiks Cube
  4. Have a part time job
  5. Read all of the books I own
  6. See Lindsey Stirling in concert
  7. Try bubble tea
  8. Begin studying Japanese
  9. Go to a zoo
  10. Improve my artwork
  11. Visit NYC
  12. Begin playing the violin again
  13. Go to Lake George
  14. See more baseball games
  15. Learn to use chopsticks
  16. Get a new tattoo
  17. Learn how to cook more
  18. Learn to play Arkham Horror and other board/card games
  19. Buy a PS4 and an Xbox One
  20. Get nose re-pierced

I understand much of this isn’t really significant or ambitious but they’re things that I really want to do, some are a challenge but realistic. 🙂

Update – Eating Disorder Relapse and Other Stuff

I had, I don’t know, I guess it would be called a relapse with my eating disorder.  Yesterday was rough. I feel like I’m failing with recovery but I’m going to keep moving forward. There’s no such thing as perfect, people make mistakes.

Anyway, things are going pretty well otherwise. My ceiling is in the process of being repaired from the water damage. That should be finished this week thankfully, it says been giving me a lot of anxiety.

I’ve been playing a lot of Stardew Valley, it’s such a relaxing game. It’s fall right now in my game so I’m growing a bunch of pumpkins 🎃. I’ve also been playing Hexalogic, it’s a sudoku type game, I got it awhile back for $2.99 on the Nintendo Switch Eshop. There’s well over 90 levels, the graphics are beautiful and the music and sound effects are very chill and relaxing.

 

 

4am Thoughts

Good morning!

Have a brunch to go to later, running on 7 hours of sleep total over 3 days! I really need some rest.

Got a much needed haircut yesterday, feels so much better having shorter hair in the summer heat.  Speaking of which, I’m so ready for fall and winter.  This weather is disgusting, it feels like walking into an oven when I go out most days.

Kind of got off track with drawing the past few days because I’ve been busy, so I’m hoping to maybe start something later today.

Oh yeah, I finally got around to buying Death Wish coffee, probably not going to help me with my sleep problems! but it will be a good caffeine boost once in awhile, it’s got like some of the highest caffeine content available.

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Currently Playing… #1

Sorry for the lack of posts lately, I’ve been having internet issues on and off the past week or so.  Anyway, things are going very well!

I started playing The Hobbit LEGO on my Nintendo 3DS.  I have it for my Xbox 360 as well, which I’ll play through eventually too.  It would be nice if a remastered version of that and The Lord of the Rings LEGO for the switch like they did with the Harry Potter games.  I’ve been meaning to re-read the books at some point as well, such a great story!

On my Xbox 360 I’ve started playing Red Dead Redemption.  I’m basically just getting the hang of the game and controls right now since I’m not very familiar with it and it’s been awhile since I’ve played.  I love the scenery and am saving money for an Xbox One so I can play RDR 2 eventually which looks amazing.  Right now I’ve been doing a lot of bounty hunting which is pretty fun.

With Animal Crossing New Leaf I’m getting closer to paying off my entire house loan with all the expansions.  I’ve put 150 hours into the game over the past 2 years and am finally getting there!  It’s taken so long but I don’t mind because of how relaxing the game-play is.

I saw that the Nintendo Switch Lite is available for pre-order.  I’ll likely eventually get the yellow one and also the Pokemon special edition version.

Feel free to comment with whatever you’re currently playing! 🙂

Summer Thoughts and a Sketch

Haven’t posted in a bit because of internet connection issues but it seems to be working a little better now.

Life has been going well, I’m just ready for summer to end.  It’s been extremely hot and I hate summer anyway, fall and winter are my time of year.  Love snow, ice, really cold temps.  Maybe I’m weird lol

Anyway, I’ve been drawing quite often and wanted to share one of my recent sketches

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Drawing more frequently has been helping me improve, at least from what I can tell when I look through my sketchbooks at older drawings.

I’m interested in trying out some pastels I have, I’ve never really worked with them much but it seems like it would be fun.

Also have been getting interesting in crafts lately.  I’d like to make some of that slime stuff that’s so popular and maybe some clay as well.

I’m thinking of doing some more videogame themed posts here and also book reviews because I read so much.  I’ve been having a hard time lately with motivation and inspiration for posts to make.

 

 

Thanks for reading!

Dealing with Agitation

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I’ve been having a lot of agitation lately, so I’ve been trying out different things to help with it.

The problem with agitation is the last thing you want to do is sit still and focus on something, you want to keep pacing or doing something negative to relieve it.  I can’t do that though, as much as I’ve wanted to lately.  I force myself to sit still, breath, and do something non destructive.  It’s very uncomfortable in the beginning, going against how you’re feeling but it gets better after awhile.

Walking

  And really any exercise that gets energy out is helpful.  It gives me an outlet for the negative energy.  I’ve been taking lots of long walks, doing sit ups, and reps with weights. I generally use this method when I feel like the agitation is too much and I might do something negative if the energy isn’t released.  Running would probably be helpful too but I’m not really in good shape so that’s not something I’ve been doing right now.  Eventually I likely will though.  

Reading

This is kind of tricky because sometimes when starting to read and being agitated I get pissed off and have a hard time sitting still and just want to throw the book down.  As silly as it seems, taking deep breaths really helps.  I try to just let the anxiety out and focus on what I’m reading.  It generally takes about 10 solid minutes of reading but once I hit that mark I really get into it and can keep going.  So it may start out as something that seems to make things worse but in the end it’s worth sticking it out if possible.  That is, if you actually enjoy reading.  Forcing yourself to read when you’re not into it to begin with probably wouldn’t just be extremely aggravating.

Gaming

I can always count on Animal Crossing: New Leaf to help me relax.  No matter what’s going on, it helps me chill.  It’s such a laid back game but it’s very task oriented which is good to take my mind off things and I find getting things “accomplished” in the game helpful for my anxiety.

Cleaning

Putting on music and cleaning and organizing is great for when I’m feeling agitated because it’s both physical and task oriented.  So I don’t have to sit still, I can move around as much as I want but it’s not that aimless pacing which generally just works me up even more. Plus, it always feels great when your place is nice and tidy.  Having a messy house/apartment really messes with you subconsciously.  It may not seem like a big deal but having a clean place creates peace of mind.

 

This was somewhat of a rambling and non planned post, actually, writing this is something I decided to do to help relieve some of the agitation I was feeling tonight.  So, if anyone has any ideas feel free to add in the comments!  I love learning different ways to cope, there are tons, this barely scratches the surface.

Nintendo Switch Lite and Other Game Stuff

So Nintendo announced and showed the Switch Lite, which will be released September 20th, 2019.  I own the main system but will probably get a Lite as well.  They come in 3 different colors, yellow, grey, and turquoise.  There’s also an exclusive Pokemon Sword and Shield version coming out.  These are basically a trimmed down version of the Switch for a cheaper price, $200.  It’s more portable and sleeker so easy to use on the go.  Also, it doesn’t have the ability to be docked or connected/played on the TV.  It’s handheld only, which I think is actually nice.  Of course, having that ability on the main switch is awesome but there are many people who prefer to game solely in handheld mode.  I tend to mainly use mine in handhold.  It’s a great option for people wanting to play on the Switch but can’t afford or don’t want to pay the $300 for the  main system.

I’m still playing Animal Crossing New Leaf and trying to finish paying off my home loan, it’s taking quite awhile.  I legitimately just found out you can stack fruit into baskets and I’ve been playing the game for around 2 years!  How I missed that is beyond me.  I was so happy to find out because I like selling fruit since there’s a lot in my town but it was tedious the way I was doing it before.

Also continuing playing Yonder : The Cloud Catcher Chronicles, at 39% completion so far. It’s so much fun to explore and is a great game, it deserves more recognition.

Going through Pokemon Let’s Go and making sure I beat all the coach trainers, and worming on beating all the master trainers.  So far I’ve just got the title of Pikachu Master. Still need to catch Mewtwo in Cerulean Cave. Oh yeah, I bought the crown accessory for my Pikachu .  $999,999 Pokedollars and completely unnecessary but why not! lol

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I’m getting a mouse for my laptop.  I got 2 games for my PC recently (Assassins Creed: Unity and The Sims 4) and know nothing about gaming on a computer, the controls are completely unfamiliar to me.  I think having a mouse will make things quite a bit easier.

There are so many great games coming out within the next year and I’m excited play them and for my collection to grow.

Thanks for reading!

Setbacks

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Flower I took a picture of this summer

 

I’ve been struggling with my eating disorder lately, I did so well for 3 months then the past week things kind of fell apart.  I started buying tons of junk food.  I’m not very good at doing anything in moderation, I tend towards the extreme of not eating nearly enough to the opposite of bingeing.  I kept things pretty balanced for awhile and I guess I convinced myself that I would never have another problem with this again so I ended up impulsively buying a lot of junk food trying to reason that I’d “have it around the house for a treat once in awhile” and well, I ended up bingeing for several days and purging.  I feel disappointed with myself and disgusted but I’m trying to not let this equate to “failure” in my mind.  It’s a setback that I can learn from and move on.  Obviously I learned having large quantities of junk food in my house is not an option, I don’t know how to control myself and it’s just a disaster waiting to happen.  There’s nothing wrong with having treats once in awhile but I realize I don’t have that kind of self control yet, maybe someday but I think it’s too early in recovery right now for that.  I’m just going to move forward from this and keep working on my recovery.

Thanks for reading!