New Hair Color

I dyed my hair light intense auburn yesterday. It’s a lot brighter in person and in the sunlight.

I’m pretty happy with how it came out. I also have Manic Panic Vampire Red hair dye to brighten it up when it eventually starts to fade,

I think in February or March I’m gonna get my hair professionally bleached. (there’s no way I’m attempting to bleach at home!) Then use Manic Panic Enchanted Forest (a dark green color) on it. And maybe Purple Haze sometime too. I’m having fun with my hair and doing makeup and things like that lately. I hadn’t done anything like that for several years but I’m getting back into all that stuff again.

I like aromatherapy and my sister gave me some perfumes recently that I’m enjoying. One is Marc Jacobs, another is Valentino, and the other is Burberry. They all smell really great. The scents help calm me down.

My mood is really good, I’m enjoying life.

Requested a bunch of books from the library. I’m glad I can still get library items during all this craziness. Nothing better than a good book on a cozy fall day.

I have a frozen pumpkin pie I want to bake. But I’m saving it for closer to Halloween.

Got the 2 forms I needed for my apartment recertification thing. So I’m relieved about that.

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Productive Day

Maintenance came over to do the annual work on the furnace. I had my apartment recertification interview today. It went well, it was basically just going through some paperwork and updating anything that needed to be updated. After that I had to order an updated copy of my SSI and SSP benefit letters. So hopefully those come in the mail soon so I can turn them in to the property manager.

Had my dentist appointment. I only have 1 more to go and I’ll be done!!! Thank God. Then I’ll just have to keep up with brushing, flossing, and regular cleanings.

Relieved that’s all taken care of.

I checked my BMI and I’m officially 1 pound away from being back in the normal weight range for my height!!! So excited about that. It’s been hard to lose the weight but metformin and healthier eating has helped a lot.

Going grocery shopping tomorrow, and Friday. Have to do my trips separately because I can only carry so much (I take the bus). I think I’m gonna get some pumpkin pie. πŸ™‚

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I’ve been depressed for a couple of weeks which would explain why I haven’t posted here in awhile. A couple of my meds were increased the other day so I’m hopeful that it helps. I was kind of just laying in bed and not doing anything for a period of time, crying, having suicidal thoughts. I’m not feeling like that today though, things seem to start to be improving. I’m making myself stop thinking so negatively and putting a block up in my mind whenever negative thoughts come up, I just shut it off immediately. Because as soon as I start entertaining those thoughts they just pull me right in and it’s hard to stop thinking that way.

I have a recertification interview here at my apartment complex (whatever that is) on Wednesday. I think it’s just recertifying my income and things like that (I live in supportive housing) but I’m not 100% sure. Also have a dentist appointment that day.

My sister came over to visit last weekend. It was nice to have company. She said my apartment looked very nice and was very clean. That was a relief to hear because I’m always freaking out and thinking my place is messy/unclean. I guess I’m just harsh on myself. I get a little behind on things when I’m depressed and I tend to start having panic attacks when I begin to overanalyze my apartment and my cleaning habits. Like severe panic attacks where I feel dissociated and everything. I’m not entirely sure why.

The weather has been cooler. Today was hot but the cooler temps will be back tomorrow and all of next week. I’m ready for Halloween πŸ˜€

Anyway, just wanted to check in to say I’m still here

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My anxiety is much better

My original post randomly deleted itself so let me try this again lol My anxiety has been a lot better recently. I think doing yoga nearly daily is making a big difference. I have only had one panic attack in the past week and I was able to get through it without using my prn medication.

I’ve been struggling with my bulimia though. I’m working on getting back on track. I downloaded a eating disorder recovery app to help me out. (it’s called Recovery Record). I started tracking my meals.

Dentist appointment went well. Didn’t panic during it thankfully. Still have a lot of work to get done but at least I’m finally getting it all taken care of. My next appointment is on the 30th. I’m on antibiotics now and the pain is better. I also went ahead and got my flu shot. Want to stay as healthy as possible.

Thinking of making a ham and cheese quiche in October. The first time I had quiche was a few months ago and I fell in love with it immediately.

Bought some autumn decor for my apartment. And got all my pictured hung finally.

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Out of shape

I started doing yoga and it’s really making me see how out of shape I am! Anyway, it’s been awhile since I posted so I wanted to update you all. I’m doing pretty well for the most part, with the exception of extreme anxiety/panic attacks but that’s one of the reasons I’m doing yoga now so hopefully that gets better over time. I have no idea where the anxiety is even coming from, but it’s bad.

I have a toothache. I have a dentist appointment next week thankfully so I can get that taken care of. Yet another reason to really regret all the years of bulimia, all the damage to my teeth.

I’m still waiting on getting the cat, waiting for my sister to take her to her appointment so I have her records for my apartment property manager. Having a cat again will also be helpful for my anxiety. They’re such great companions.

My care manager is going to help me find some volunteer work so I’m looking forward to that.

Excited that autumn is coming, I can’t wait till Halloween! Got this shirt and a pair of pajama pants at Walmart recently.

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No med changes

Had an appointment with my psychiatrist today. Went well, no med changes since I’m doing really good.

I’m not going to be getting the kitty until September because that’s when her vet appointment will be. Once I have her shot records I will be good to go. I got a Fitbit Charge 3 the other day. It’s awesome, It’s motivating me to walk more. Took 2 walks yesterday. I’m trying to lose some weight and get healthier in general.

Going to Walmart tomorrow to get a 100 pack of colored pencils so I can do artwork and color pictures in my adult coloring books. Art is very relaxing.

As for cooking, I’m making a shrimp vegetable pasta salad later this month. I’ll post pics of course πŸ™‚

So yeah, things are going well for me, I’m enjoying life. Need to get back to practicing with my instrument, I took a break for a couple weeks. I have a hard time with doing things consistently, like consistently practicing drawing, walking/exercising, or pretty much anything that I’d want to do on a regular basis. I need to work on that.

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Autumn, optimism and staying up all night…

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It rained all day yesterday, I loved it! Rainy days are perfect for reading. Right now I’m reading “Christmas Shopaholic” by Sophie Kinsella.

I bought these pumpkin shaped Reese’s at the grocery store the other day (there’s already some Halloween candy out) and they’re gone already, omg Reese’s are so addictive. Peanut butter and chocolate is just the best combo ever.

My sister is bringing over my new Fitbit Charge 3 this weekend. Having something to track my steps has always motivated me to walk more. I’m making a small batch of chocolate chip cookies for her, my niece, and brother-in-law. So hopefully they enjoy them.

I’m already getting into the autumn spirit, I know it’s wayyyyyy early but I’m just so excited for it. It will be so much easier walking in the cooler temps. And the leaves changing colors, pumpkin spice everything, hoodies, carving pumpkins. It’s just the best. I wish I could fast forward through August and most of September to get to it.

I ordered a planner called the Legend Planner. It’s supposed to be really helpful for planning your days and focusing on your goals. A friend recommended it to me and I needed a new planner anyway so I went took a look at it online and decided to get it. I like writing most things out with pen and paper rather than electronically, it just feels better to me.

Slept very late today, till 1:30 pm! Not sure how that happened. I guess my bed was just way to cozy to want to get up and out of the covers. So I’m likely going to be staying up all night tonight so I can be up early to go to the grocery store then go to bed at a normal time tomorrow night and get my sleep back on a normal schedule. Tonight I plan on listening to scary true stories on YouTube and also watching a bunch of episodes of Schitts Creek on Netflix. Oh, and reading my book. I might see if I can buy one of those adult coloring books tomorrow. I haven’t colored in quite awhile, it used to be a favorite hobby, it’s so relaxing.

I’m feeling much more motivated and optimistic lately. And have been experiencing less anxiety. Enjoying life, each moment. Focusing on the here and now, letting go of worry.

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Inspection Went Well

Apartment inspections went well, was nervous about it but everything was fine. I had an appointment with my therapist today, it was good. My care manager is stopping by just to say hi tomorrow so I’m looking forward to that, we haven’t seen each other in person for about 5 months due to Covid.

I took a walk today. Trying to do that more often, it’s hard though since the weather has been so hot. I’m buying a yoga set so I can start doing yoga again and getting exercise indoors for when I don’t feel like going out. I like to walk more in the fall, winter, and early spring than I do in the summer because the weather is much cooler so I’m kind of waiting for autumn to really start walking.

Started watching the show Schitts Creek on Netflix. It’s hilarious, definitely recommend it.

Getting some Chinese takeout on Saturday, yay!! Sweet and sour chicken, an egg roll, and pork fried rice.

I practiced crocheting yesterday and finally was able to do 2nd rows! It took me awhile but I finally learned how to do it. I still need a lot of practice, I want to get good at it. πŸ˜€

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Sausage and Peppers

I made sausage and peppers in my crockpot yesterday. This is the recipe I used if anyone is interested:

The only change I made was using hot Italian turkey sausage instead of regular sausage. It turned out wonderful!

Here’s a pic of the peppers cut up, I thought the red and green looked nice together (I did use onions, they’re just not in this pic)

Have apartment inspections this week. Always get nervous about those but it should be alright. It’s just my anxiety acting up.

I heard from a friend I didn’t hear from for a month, so I’m happy about that. He struggles with severe depression so sometimes goes through phases where he isolates and doesn’t reach out to anyone, which is understandable.

Things are going pretty well. My anxiety has been bad but I’ve been using a lot of coping skills to get through that and panic attacks. Praying, journaling, reading, and meditation have all helped a lot.

Next recipe I plan on making is called crack chicken. It has shredded chicken breasts, cream cheese, shredded cheese, bacon bits and ranch seasoning made in the crockpot. It sounds/looks really good.

I went from hardly ever making home cooked meals for myself to cooking several times a month so that’s a big change. Normally I’d just live on sandwiches, salads, fruit, and oatmeal.

Anyway, all is good, I’ll update later this week with how the inspections went.

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Chocolate chip blondies

Made these yesterday, here’s the recipe:

They came out super dense, moist, chocolaty and delicious! πŸ˜€

Now I’m on pinterest searching for recipes to make for the upcoming fall, winter, and holidays of 2020. Having so much fun getting back into cooking. It’s a great hobby. Oh yeah, that hamburger hash I made the other day in my crockpot came out super good as well. Here’s a pic (may not look great but it tastes wonderful).

Here’s the recipe I used:

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