So I finally started volunteering! My first day was on Monday. Second day was yesterday (Wednesday), I have been being a kitchen prep assistant for the lunch shift of a local shelter/organization that serves free meals to the community. The first day was pretty easy. The second day was difficult. As in I got so stressed I almost started crying and was about to bolt but I managed to keep from crying and leaving, I just stuck with it and made it through the shift and it got better after awhile. I was extremely shaky and nervous, bordering on panic while serving the first couple of people but I managed to get through it and after that it was pretty easy. I am going to volunteer again on Friday. I’m glad I started doing it even though it’s stressful sometimes, it is good experience. It also gives me good insight to know that I would probably do better in a lower stress environment when I start working part-time eventually, so I’m thinking shelving books at a library or something low stress like that.
Last week I got my root canal finished. I have 3 more dental appointments. One to get my last filling. One to get impressions made on the tooth I got the root canal done to get a crown made for it, and one last one to get the permanent crown put on. After that I just have to keep up with regular dental exams/cleanings. So I’m happy about that.
Yesterday I had a meeting with my case manager. We both think I’m ready to graduate from the care coordination program I’ve been in the past 6 years. I’ve made a lot of progress, and I’m a lot more indepentent in terms of being able to get places on my own, picking up my own meds, taking my meds, keeping up with my appointments, making appointments, advocating for myself, budgeting, etc and my mental health has been a lot more stable. So in October I will be graduating from there, which means I’ll no longer have a case manager through that orginazation. I’ll still have a case manager who works at my supportive housing apartment complex, but we just basically meet to discuss housing stuff and goals.
In January I’m going back to college part-time. I’m planning on getting all my general education classes completed while I decide on a major.
So I’m doing very well! I feel like I have made a huge amount of progress over the past couple of years. Some of it was very slow going but I feel like I was persistent enough to keep trying whenever I failed or fell off track (which was a lot of times), and I think it’s all starting to finally come together in the past couple of months. I’ve been taking my meds consistently, I’ve been sleeping well most days. I’m finally in a routine with when I sleep and wake up. I also have been cleaning my apartment regularly which is something I struggled a lot with and have been doing really well with my hygiene which is another thing I struggled a lot with. I’ve been getting out of the house a lot, which is something I had a very difficult time with, I probably spent the majority of 2020- late 2021 inside my apartment.
I feel proud proud of myself and excited for the future! I hope everyone is doing well, thank you for reading! 🙂